Destiny, you are the most beautiful and warm hearted girl that I ever met. Like, I seriously never met anyone like you, hard to say, but, this time it’s true. Love you!
And doesn’t it mean I can be attracted to another girl too? :D Oh well, I dont want to get in her way of getting to know him. That’s y imma step back. Haha. It’s been nice trying to take it to the next level. But that’s the past ha.
This day would have been our 4th…
Now that this day is over with, time to move on with my life and finally get over her. Gotta maintain my straight A’s in school and do better with my friends. Especially her. I’m posting it here to tell you guys that I’m ready to move on. It’s gonna be easy for me to say bye to the past now, the challenge that’s left is knowing when to say hello to my future. I’m ready to move on, but when should I make that move? All up to me. Thanks for all your support friends. I love you all.
Sorry fwends. I deleted my Facebook. But I guess i’ll start blogging on here again. Haha.
It’s been a day and I already miss you horribly CharChar. I’m glad you landed safely in Hawaii and told me right when you did. :) But today, it was just so awkward without you.
The morning didn’t feel the same. For some reason, I saw Oliver and thought it was you and my heart lit up but then when my eyes focused, I was realized it was Oliver and my hopes got shot down quicker than a bird falling from the sky from a damaged wing. I was sad walking up from Broadcast heading to English to know I don’t see your child smile walking down. In Pre-Cal, I waited for you to walk in with that buff swag you have. lol. Just so I can bend over my desk and say CharChar! :D But your seat was empty. It looked so lonely and cold. Maybe it was cos that’s how I felt when I saw you weren’t there. At lunch. It was extremely awkwarddd! You weren’t in your seat. So I sat in it, idk why but I did. Lol. And I was waiting for you to walk in just to say, “Are we going to Nish’s?” Or “What’s the plan today?!” with that ^__^ smile. But you weren’t. I went to Nish’s alone. and to make it more alone, I told him to sleep since he lacked rest all day. Then I went to Adriel’s alone and it was weird without you there! Playing piano.
Already, it’s been just one day, and my senior year feels more off course than it already did. You weren’t my boyfriend but you made a big enough affect on me like you were. But you were better than that. You were my best friend. There for everything and with me in anything. :) And then when I told you, “See, they made it up to you. They care. :)” you didn’t acknowledge what I’d said. Well, you did but you moved it aside and told me, “I know, thanks for everything Twink.” and that made me happy. Especially when you told me, “I don’t know, you just make me smile. You make me happy. :)” after I told you I didn’t do anything. Lol. I’m sorry I cried when I we had our last hug. But you mean a lot to me. And I know you know very well too. Miss you and love you CharChar. <3
Cassie… this made me cry again… more…